I now officially have a child in kindergarten. It has taken the last month for that fact to actually sink in.

I am not too sure of how to react to this new classification of my child into the category of “school-aged children.” Every muscle in my body is screaming to just pick her up and take her away from there; to get the hell out of dodge to a country where children don’t grow up (and neither do the parents).

I know that her growing up is going to happen, I mean – DUH! That’s the whole thing about life; you are born, you grow up, and you die. In between is just a big party for you to “learn about who you are” so that when you do finally die, the people you leave behind know whether to barbeque your remains or fill them with formaldehyde. I guess I just never realized that my child would be a part of this whole “circle of life.” Maybe I chose not to realize it, because I am in love with my daughter as she is and has been.

My daughter is an amazing child. She is easy to deal with and almost always does whatever I want her to do. She is fun and playful, and she only ever really cries when she gets hurt, and not just a little hurt. She is rough and tough like a tomboy, which I TOTALLY adore (me being the girl who never wore dresses, but could always be found in a tree). She is smart and funny, and can almost always make me smile just by giving me “that look”.

I wasn’t planning on being a mother at 21, but she slowed me down and made me take a step back to look at my behavior. Sometimes, I wish that I had been older when I had her, but I know now that it was having her that gave me the chance to enjoy this “party” and learn about who I am and what I really do want. Before her, I was just another stupid kid who had no idea which direction I was going; now I have goals and dreams I never thought I would have, with her in my life. She is a reason to smile when I wake up every day, and the reason I need all the sleep I can get every night.

Before Kamy, I used to say I wanted four children, and I meant it. Now, with her in my life, I am completely content if it were to only ever be her in my life. Yes, I would love to have more children, but who’s to say that opportunity will ever arise? For now, I will remain happy with the gorgeous daughter I am lucky to have, and hope she doesn’t grow up any faster than she already is.

Kamylle Love Forever,

K